Waiting

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When you have a chronic condition of any kind you seem to spend a lot of your life waiting.

  • You wait for appointments to see doctors or specialists, for tests or surgery.
  • You wait in waiting rooms for seemingly arbitrary appointment times
  • You wait for you prescription to be filled
  • You wait for new medications to kick in, if they ever do
  • You wait for the pain to ease
  • You wait for some sort of help
  • You wait for people to believe or understand what you are going through
  • You wait for sleep to come, sometimes it is the only relief from the unending pain, frustration, grief and anger.

You wait



Kayt Sept 17

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